Fear
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a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil,pain, etc., whether the threat is real or imagined; the feelingor condition of being afrai
Alright, so everyone is afraid of something. Whether it be spiders, heights or even the old dreaded fear of failure.
This has been on my mind a lot lately- its really sad when our lives are dictated by it and we don't pursue things because of it. Its like we believe "oh that person can have that, but I couldn't ever dream of that"
Its scary pursuing something as unpredictable as the arts.....You never quite know what is just around the corner.
My big fears
-Making my own work
-Sharing my original music
I don't think its the "critique" from others I worry about, but just act itself of putting it out there. . Once that is done - its all good. For some reason I have put off really making a go of my music, and yet Ive always felt like its something I really want to do. Ive always thought I wasn't very good (or as good as others) at writing or creating...so my solution was giving up or finding something else to focus on. I consider myself quite determined so giving up is really weird.
I don't think its the "critique" from others I worry about, but just act itself of putting it out there. . Once that is done - its all good. For some reason I have put off really making a go of my music, and yet Ive always felt like its something I really want to do. Ive always thought I wasn't very good (or as good as others) at writing or creating...so my solution was giving up or finding something else to focus on. I consider myself quite determined so giving up is really weird.
This is just my fear I think, because what I'm told by others is really different.
Sustaining a Career in the Arts----> We do a lot of weird, wild and wonderful things. Like- working in hospitality lol...Im in Australia at the moment and Im working at Hogs Breath Cafe. its not exactly the most arty thing to be doing. But I try to learn from all the things I'm doing and try to use every experience.
Sustaining a Career in the Arts----> We do a lot of weird, wild and wonderful things. Like- working in hospitality lol...Im in Australia at the moment and Im working at Hogs Breath Cafe. its not exactly the most arty thing to be doing. But I try to learn from all the things I'm doing and try to use every experience.
All my questions- the questions I ask about life (whoa...broad much?)...are all around.. Something as simple as the way a kids eyes lights up with joy when you say they get free ice cream! Oh, so much to learn from kids I swear. Thats what we were all like before we were layered with all the social conditioning that seperates us from everyone else. I remember being little and meeting a new person..it didnt matter what they looked like or where they were from....they were a new friend! We could play together!
These are the sorts of things I think about all the time. The kinds of questions I want to be able to ask in the work I make. Why do we do the things we do??.....Whats up with the judgement calls we make or the gossip or the focus on the material things to make us happy..??
It makes me think of the books Ive been reading. "The Art of Happiness at work" by Howard Cutler and the Dalai Lama. In this day and age especially we are so hell bent on having the latest gadget, the flashest car and the nicest house. All these little things that we truly believe will make us happy.....When these things dont work...we try other things...and in desperations people may turn to drinking, binge eating or drugs to try and fill that void.
Ohk Im kind of giving away what the show idea I have is. But thats what Im really interested in. Those weird and wild things people do to TRY and make themselves happy. Its all purely external. The books Im reading say that we actually decide how we feel. We decide how we react to situations and cant blame it on the situation itself. This is defs easier said then done- I know.
These are the sorts of things I think about all the time. The kinds of questions I want to be able to ask in the work I make. Why do we do the things we do??.....Whats up with the judgement calls we make or the gossip or the focus on the material things to make us happy..??
It makes me think of the books Ive been reading. "The Art of Happiness at work" by Howard Cutler and the Dalai Lama. In this day and age especially we are so hell bent on having the latest gadget, the flashest car and the nicest house. All these little things that we truly believe will make us happy.....When these things dont work...we try other things...and in desperations people may turn to drinking, binge eating or drugs to try and fill that void.
Ohk Im kind of giving away what the show idea I have is. But thats what Im really interested in. Those weird and wild things people do to TRY and make themselves happy. Its all purely external. The books Im reading say that we actually decide how we feel. We decide how we react to situations and cant blame it on the situation itself. This is defs easier said then done- I know.
Do other people think about this stuff as much as I do??? Id love to hear peoples thoughts about it....and even if you have a story to tell ..maybe what you do to try and make yourself feel happy when your day isnt going so well. No judgements here....
I heard a statistic recently...when surveyed I believe about 70% of students (that were asked) said that when they were older they were going to be famous. The obsession with fame, with being rich, with having the seemingly "perfect" life.....wheres the big break coming from?
Thats another example of externals or.... "Ill finally be happy when......". Its different for everyone. Ill finally be happy when....I have that new holden.....I own that new business...I win lotto....I fall in love.... "AND then and only then will I....quit smoking...drink less...give money to charity..or whatevs......
Why can we just be happy now? Why cant what we have EVER be enough? Im asking this for myself and everyone.
Im sure Im not alone when I say this....that feeling like "just around the corner" theres that opportunity...
Maybe I am babbling...but these are my thoughts :)
I heard a statistic recently...when surveyed I believe about 70% of students (that were asked) said that when they were older they were going to be famous. The obsession with fame, with being rich, with having the seemingly "perfect" life.....wheres the big break coming from?
Thats another example of externals or.... "Ill finally be happy when......". Its different for everyone. Ill finally be happy when....I have that new holden.....I own that new business...I win lotto....I fall in love.... "AND then and only then will I....quit smoking...drink less...give money to charity..or whatevs......
Why can we just be happy now? Why cant what we have EVER be enough? Im asking this for myself and everyone.
Im sure Im not alone when I say this....that feeling like "just around the corner" theres that opportunity...
Maybe I am babbling...but these are my thoughts :)
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